Thursday, September 29, 2011

I Wish I was Home with Harley

The world
is much too big.

Falling into eternal shifting grey,
red blood on white snow.

Everything depends on the perspective.

Spinning gently out of reality,
everything is false in this slow, morpheus world.
everything is bright.

There is no music here.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Hearts and Hands and Mouths and Minds

bitten

raw

unkempt

glowing

"She dropped her shyness like a nightgown, and in the liquid glare of sunlight on old boards she held up her hands - as if, in the terror of the unknown, she had at last understood that she was beautiful. In her way."

-Wicked by Gregory Macguire

Thursday, September 15, 2011

endlessly varied

the calm twilight shines falteringly
on the serenity of a night spent stargazing,
feeling the bites of mosquitoes,
and pretending the grass isn't as itchy as it is.

Drink the soothing draft of drowsiness,
drift off into a world unclouded,
shrouded,
with the vapors of reality
while a heart-shaped moon shivers
in a sky of ink.

it's nothing,
escape.

The chill of dark corners,
roads not taken,
and lingering night.


it is not what it seems to make you believe,
but an opposite,
a mirror,
a reflection.

A hazy purple sky shields my sun, coating the world in grey and black.
I wish it would return.

1) A winter of endless Wednesday afternoons, a different, snow-covered world around us, somehow warmer than any other February day I've ever known.

2) A spring of endless Tuesday mornings, where meaning falls in to place with a weightless sense of gravity.

3) A summer of endless dark nighttimes, when the world is small and dimly lit and brightly colored, full of sound and music and motion and smiles, when the world is bodies moving to a beat, when the world is spun of love.

4) An autumn of endless Friday evenings, with so much before, spent discovering and exploring in a city of lights and in the corners of young hearts, always finding something new, never losing track of place.

It's not as though the sun goes out, but hidden in clouds of solitude, it's not quite as warm a day.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

I've Given Up On Being Poetic Tonight, I'll Just Be Honest.

(I love you)

Shh...
pretend I didn't say it.

let me tell you instead
some other things
I love...
I love your voice.
I love your smell.
I love the way you hug me.
I love the things we talk about.
I love when we just sit with each other
just sit silently
I love when you make me laugh,
I love when I can make you laugh.
I love when you talk about your music.
I love that you understand. I love that you care.
I love the way you say my name, like it's something special and sacred and yours.
I even love how you drive.
I love how you speak, how you think, I love what you do, I love who you are.
I love that you're the only one
who ever makes me feel like I matter
to them, more than anyone else.

So now you know.
Everything I love.


Thursday, September 1, 2011

Post 200 from This Account

9/1

Time passes slowly in a desolate place
but freedom from its constraints promises nothing.

what is the purpose of living?
To seek out what meager substantiality we can find,
secure a place in moderate comfort and security
until the time comes when we are uprooted
sprinkled periodically with the waters of pain,
only to shake it off like an animal and search for a new place
and on and on
years passing
in monotony
until our skies turn a perpetual
black

and we learn the answer
to the
greatest
secret.
I was told I don't write anymore.
the truth is I have no thoughts left worth writing.
This place drains the mind of consciousness, awareness,
until I am left with barely a grey stripe of perfect paint
where my thoughts used to
be scrawled,
unending.

I sit
and stare at this grey.
Waiting for someone to give me a pen.
My hand is empty.
there are no words on the walls of my mind.
No more writing;
just grey.